General thoughts....

I am stifled again. My brain is cloudy and my thought processes are about as coherent as an active kindergartener running around on a playground, aimlessly looking for another kid to play with. It's a very ineffective way of getting up and starting the day. Considering that I am in this "rebirth" and trying to figure out my peace, it can be frustrating. There are no ins and outs on how to get to where I am going, I know that I am on my way there. Some mornings, I dunno, I feel the weight of the world caving in and my desire to get in my car and drive takes hold. I am not unhappy, but I am far from being happy. I don't feel as trapped as I used to, but I still feel confined to the same restraints that keep me from doing the things that I really want to do. Should I seek out counseling or should I keep it all bottled up? Who knows at this point. I will be 47 soon and I think that if I haven't figured it out by now, then I am never really going to figure it out. At least I am out here trying.