Stranded In A Different State Of Mind

Stranded In A Different State Of Mind
Awake
PDA (We Don't Care) - John Legend

Recent discoveries have come to mind in my ongoing quest to rediscover myself and my interests. It turns out I may be turned on to the ideas of Socialism. I realize that being able to get and have mine is an ideal of a capitalist American, but the more I look into the structure of our economy and see who has and who doesn't I am convinced that capitalism only works for those who have all the money. It only works for those who have all of the land. And the constitution of our great nation says that we have the right to life liberty and the pursuit of happiness. That being said, we all have a responsibility to ourselves as individuals to work toward these goals and try to achiee as many of them as we can...that is our right! Doesn't mean that we will get anything we work hard for. I am not saying wealth or anything like that will gaurantee a happy life, but peace of mind is probably better than struggling to stay alive. I'm looking further into the principles of this belief. Interesting thing to know is that all Communists are Socialists, but not all Socialists are Communists. I wonder if it works the same way with Capitalists?

Ernie had a bit of fun this weekend! I took a few days off from work to maybe collect myself (somewhat) and on Friday I managed to get a little boom-boom. The small handouts I get these days are greatly appreciated, even if they cum from the cocks of partnered gentlemn. I really like this new bud tha I have. He has beautiful chocolate sking, I like kissing his lips as he is taking me from behind and pushing his cock all of the way inside of me. He's fucking hot! He's also not the kind of man I would ever want to be serious with...he likes to [play] and that's okay by me, just not while he was with me. Man, his cock.....his cock is beautiful. His ass is nice and I enjoy playtime with him when I can get it. We fucked for a while the other day and afterwards we went and had lunch. He's the kind of guy that I like to pal around with and when I become more comfortable with him, maybe we will have a great friendship. Maybe he just likes to fuck and I am one of those guys he likes to have around for a specific amount of time to satisfy his lust. Either way....I'm glad to fill the position.

Speaking of self actualization and the latter comments, I have come to find that I am more attracted to men of color more than I am attracted to white guys. I realize this and I embrace it. The thing that I like about black men and hispanic men is this, they get down to business. I don't have to guess what it is they want because tey make it known. I also don't have to perpetuate a interest in getting to know them personally to have them drop trou and gimme some sugar. Added bonuses include a respect for my space and my body, a desire to please both parties and a bit of ownership on an ass they like to hit. A little jealousy or possesiveness is fine in my book because it shows that a man is willing to fight for what is his. There is nothing more exciting to me than blending the races sexually, physically, emotionally, spiritually...everything. I have no gaurantees that a man of color won't hurt me anymore than a dumbass whiteboy, but I will no where I stand every minute of the day. They tend to be more honest. In the QUEER world I live in where men define their livelihood by their tastes and disregard potential soulmates, it is my turn to give my tastes (or types) a face...maybe someone will get the point.

Peace!