Distractions

 It happens almost every time I set pen to paper or thought to screen. Something takes precedent over the feeling that has been weighing on me and I am forced to ignore what it is that I need to get out in order to placate the temporary inconvenience. My thoughts are constantly being halted by notifications, interruptions, or overall fuckery from external influences regardless how I try to make the walls around me impenetrable. It's like the vibrations can penetrate anything. And I am weak.

Even now, as I attempt to get out anything, a mountain of "to do" shit is tumbling down on me. Even though an entire morning of "nothing" has been on my docket. It seems the only time I am required to do anything is when I require time to reflect and get something out! And if I take the time to do this, then everything backs up to a degree that is almost like punishment. It's as if the universe says "you cannot do this" and decides to charge all the demons to focus on me.