There Was No Sound

I'd wait here all day long

To see your face and hear your voice

I'd gladly give my soul to take

If I was left with no other choice

I'd live in sentence without explanation

To know the things that you know

I'd sacrifice the joy of never wanting you

If it meant I'd never grow

You are a chameleon

Parading as my shepherd

I do not take lightly your guidance

Or solace in your words

You are my patience

And you are the thorn in my side

But you do little to complete me

And do everything to hide

I'd love more with all my heart

If loving gave love in return

I'd walk to the edge of heaven

Just to show you the hell that burns

I'd show you that nothing is my only worth

And by nothing, you've made me rich

I'd take the bounty, without guarantee

But with you there's always a hitch

I am not who you let me be

Oh master pull my strings

There was a time when such clarity

Came from simply being

You are a chameleon

Parading as my shepherd

I do not follow in the light of your smile

'Cause I've been battered by your words

I'd wait for you here

If waiting meant that you'd show

I'd sit quietly, and dream of forever

But forever was so long ago

I'd tell you that forgiveness might be attainable

As to some it is divine

I'd give you a heart that's been broken too often

But I would suffer in your design

Just so we're clear, you are my past

My future was never clear

My shepherd, you led me astray

I've been alone too long here

You are and will always be a chameleon

I've struggled to believe your words

Now that I no longer suffer your abandonment

I no longer wish to be heard