Same old thing, brand new day...

I am having another one of those days. It's the same old feeling that I have, where I want to explode all over social media and tell people that I am not in a good head space right now. But nothing will ever come from it. The only thing that can make me better is me. I am frustrated with trying to find the right head space to continue going on. Maybe it is the coming down effect that comes with slamming sleeping medications so late the night before? All I know is that I go from one thing to another thinking that the outcome will be the same, ideal and secure. What I find is that I am not completely sold on the idea of being a punching bag for the masses. I would rather listen to the asshole in my head, then have to deal with the assholes in real life. I can barricade myself in a quiet room and hide away. All I really want is some more sleep and a bladder that functions properly.