Fake It Until You Make It

I have been doing my best to avoid the holiday blues. I went out and bought a new, shiny, rose gold colored tinsel Christmas tree. I finally got all of my Christmas ornaments and decorations from my mothers house to spruce up my tiny apartment. I have 3 trees set up in my apartment, each adorned with lights and decorations that would appeal to almost anyone. I went out and bought Christmas presents for my friends and family. I made sure to send out Christmas cards in time. I have planned out a special holiday dinner for my family and I hope that they are able to enjoy the moment. I also decided to donate my acoustic guitar to someone who had a child that was in need of one. I really want goodness to exude from my pores. I want the feeling of loneliness and sadness to overlook my soul this holiday season. Mostly, I just want to get through all these feelings that make me wish that Santa was real, love was unconditional, and Christmas magic exists.