It's Mutual

I'm not supposed to feel. I'm never supposed to show emotion. Those of my kind have been conditioned to take all of the things that make us human; hopes, dreams, ambitions, fears, desires, and compartmentalize them into nothing boxes. I'm full of numb with no one to to explode on to, no secondary spillway to unburden and unload my numerous neurosis. And I'm learning that I have to be quiet more. Share less. Do not identify with others as often. Because, as a man.... One who is not beautiful.... One who is gay.... One who is older.... The cards are stacked against me. I had my time to shine and I wasted it. I can't tell anyone that, because I have to work until I die. What a depressing countdown to extinction.