Slander

I tried to believe that you were good for me

I believed that love came with a few red flags

I believed that a little give and take

would strengthen the bond that we made

And I overlooked our problems, as though I was mistaken

Taken over by a need to be with someone

Someone who only needed me to say

I love you

But I lied to you

I was not in love

Just in love with the thought of being with you

I lied to myself

To bandage the pieces of my broken heart

from a wounded past

I should've known from the start

We were incompatable

You may think that I am playing games

Maybe I hold most of the blame

I never wanted it to be complicated

I tried

I tried to be the only voice that you would hear

To rise above the other boys and be the only face you'd see

I spent so much time giving all of my time to you

Hoping that my actions would give you reason

Reason to be all that I wanted you to be

But you couldn't be

Anymore that you could ever be

It escaped me that I could be 

the one who let me down

So I lied to you

I was not in love

Just in love with the though of being with you

I lied to myself

to bandage the pieces of my broken heart

from a wounded past

I should've known from the start

We were incompatable

You may think that I am playing games

Maybe I hold most of the blame

I never wanted it to be complicated.

Say you'll never see me again

And I'll tell my stories to all of my friends

They will know how you broke my heart

like the ones before and all those after

But it's all just slander

Because I lied to you

All I wanted was someone to tell me "I love you"

And I wanted you

Because I thought you were someone that I could come home to

I've lied all this time

There are too many ways to believe 

that I meant well

And enough reasons to say 

that I have had enough

Only time will only tell

I lied to you.